By Arlene James
Publisher: Steeple Hill Books
Release Date: December 2009
Copyright © 2008 by Deborah Rather
Sick of making beds at the Heavenly Arms, the motel owned by his grandfather, oil-driller Holt Jefford prayed for help. He got it in the form of a lovely young widow with an adorable baby son—and a suitcase full of secrets that Holt feels duty-bound to uncover. The past has taught Holt to value family, but he’s not sure that God intends him to marry because his, after all, is the same dangerous occupation that took his father’s life. Something about Cara Jane and little Ace speaks to a man’s inner hero, though, and makes him rethink old assumptions.
A slender forefinger pecked a tiny spot on the map spread out across the table in the little diner. Outside, rain drizzled down in a gloomy, chilly curtain, holding dawn at bay. Weather reports predicted a continuation of the current pattern of rain for northern Oregon, but Cara’s concern centered more on what she would find south and west of here as they worked their way steadily toward Oklahoma and… She leaned forward checking to be certain that her bleary eyes hadn’t played her false. Yes, there, right next to Highway 81. Eden.
Her tired gaze backtracked wistfully the equivalent distance of some thirty miles to Duncan, following the tiny line that represented the silver, two-lane ribbon of road. None of the interminable bus trips of her youth had ever taken her farther than Duncan. She’d originally planned to head straight for the town, thinking that she could find no better place to raise her son than that where she had known her happiest times, but then she’d realized that her brother Eddie would almost certainly think to look for her there.
So Eden it would be. Surely she could find sanctuary in a place with that name.
Next to her in a booster seat on the vinyl bench of the booth, her son Ace shoved away the remaining bits of buttered toast that remained from their shared breakfast and rubbed his eyes with two tiny, chubby fists before reaching toward her with a whine. Since his fussing the night before had prevented both of them from getting any real sleep, she knew exactly how he felt, but they dared not tarry another night in the Portland area. She hoped to make Boise, Idaho, before dinnertime and find a quiet motel off the beaten path where she and her little son could rest for the night before driving on.
After quickly folding up the map, Cara reached into the diaper bag that also served as her purse and removed several bills from her wallet. These she placed on the table before sliding out of the booth, tugging on her short jean jacket and reaching for her son. Their clothing had proven no match for the chill Oregon weather, but her limited funds prevented any but the most basic purchases. They’d just have to make do with layering. Ace, at least, seemed warm.
He laid his pale head on her shoulder as she reached for the diaper bag. She pulled up the hood of his tiny, gray fleece sweater before carrying him out into the fine rain. After belting him securely into his safety seat in the back of the small, greenish coupe for which she’d traded the minivan deemed suitable by her late husband and in-laws, Cara slid behind the wheel.
She would not regret the loss of the GPS guidance system offered by the minivan or bemoan the state of the eight-year-old foreign car with which she’d replaced it. Instead she told herself sternly, she would be thankful for the money she’d made from the trade, cash that, if carefully spent, would help her start a new life for herself and her precious son. Ace would grow up in the safety of a small town, cared for by his mother.
Cara started the car and gripped the steering wheel, suddenly beset by fear and doubt. Gulping, she told herself that she could do this. She’d come this far. She could do whatever she must for the sake of her child and a chance to live a normal, healthy life. With a new year but days away, she vowed that a new life would be her true Christmas gift to her child. He deserved a mother who provided him with a warm, supportive, affectionate and loving home. That required a strong woman able to make her own way in the world.
If only she knew how to be that woman.
Panic began to swell. Cara knew that she must find a way to protect and provide for her little son or watch him become another possession of his cold, controlling grandparents. But how? The task suddenly seemed too daunting for a woman on her own. Homeless, all but broke and on the run, how could she possibly give her child the life that he deserved and needed? Somehow, for his sake, she must find a way.
“Help me!” she cried out silently, wondering if her plea could reach through the great void that she felt. God had never seemed quite real to her, but Cara desperately wanted to believe that He existed, that He cared. She wanted to think that her late, beloved great-aunt had been right, that God noticed her distress and would respond to her prayers.
That was not insane. Was it?
She would not think of insanity or the clinic. She would pray instead, though she didn’t really know how. Her aunt had always prayed silently with bowed head and folded hands, but the TV preachers sometimes stood with arms upraised, crying out. Surely something in between would work as well.
Taking a deep breath, Cara whispered, “Dear God, please help me. For Ace. Please help me be what he needs, give him what he needs. Let Eden be just that for us. Amen.”
Feeling no calmer but somehow stronger, she sat up a little straighter, looked into the rearview mirror and shifted the transmission into gear. Guiding the little car out onto the rain-washed street, she fixed her gaze on the road ahead.
Toward Eden and home.
Holt clicked the mouse and watched a new page open on the computer screen before dropping his gaze back to the ledger on the desktop. His grandfather was right. With the occupancy rate continuing high, the motel seemed to be doing well financially. Should they be forced to sell, and provided Holt could bring himself to ask that of his grandfather, they ought to be able to get a good price for it.
The Heavenly Arms had been Hap Jefford’s livelihood, not to mention his home, for longer than the thirty-six years that Holt had been breathing. Hap had sunk his life savings into the place and often remarked that the hospitality industry offered the best of all worlds to a man with, as he put it, “the friendly gene.” It also offered a great deal of work, most of which Holt’s sister Charlotte had managed until Thanksgiving of this year.
Now, at the very end of December, Holt felt like pulling out his hair in frustration. When he and his brother Ryan had encouraged their sister to follow her heart, which meant relocating to Dallas with the man she loved, they had vastly overestimated their ability to handle the added responsibilities here, or even to hire help. Not a single person had replied to the employment ads they’d placed in area newspapers.
Holt pushed a hand through his sandy brown hair, aware that he needed a haircut, but when was he supposed to find time for that? His brother Ryan, a teacher, coach and assistant principle at the local high school, could not be as available as Holt, who was self-employed as an oil driller. Ryan’s many duties at the school meant that Holt had to shoulder the lion’s share of the work around here. Motel issues now consumed his days, and his own business interests languished as a result.
He’d intended to have a couple new mineral leases signed before the end of the year so he could keep his crews busy exploring for oil, but New Years Eve had arrived and he still hadn’t moved on either one. Heartily sick of changing beds, he told himself that something had to give and soon. They, he, had to have help.
Sighing, he dropped his head into his hands and silently went to the one source that had never failed him.
“Lord, I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place here. I don’t even know where to look next. There’s got to be someone out there who wants this job. Even in this small town, there’s got to be someone. Whoever it is, Lord, could you please hurry them along?”
A chime accompanied the sound of the front door opening. Holt quickly finished his prayer and moved from the inner office out into the lobby area.
“Hello,” said a breathy female voice as he walked through the door behind the counter.
A pretty little blond in a closely fitted jean jacket worn over a figure-hugging double layer of yellow and white T-shirts stood before him with a baby on her hip, her golden hair curving in a saucy flip just above her shoulders. Deeply set eyes of a soft, cloudy regarded him solemnly from beneath gently arched, light brown brows. A pert nose, apple cheeks and a perfectly proportioned, peach pink mouth in an oval face completed the picture.
Holt walked to the counter and looked down, far down. She stood more than a foot shorter than his six-feet-and-three-and-one-half-inches. Hitching the child, a blond, chubby-faced boy, higher on her hip, she shifted her weight slightly and offered a tentative smile.
“Hello,” she repeated, dipping her head.
Holt mentally slapped himself, jarring his brain into sluggish activity. “Uh, hello. Uh, looking for a room?”
They had plenty to spare at the moment because of the holiday. The oil field workers who occupied most of the kitchenettes had all gone home to their families, and the truckers who usually filled the smaller units were off the road for the same reason. As a result, only a half dozen of the twelve units currently held occupants, four by month-to-month renters and two others by out-of-towners visiting friends or family in Eden.
“Umm.” The blond nodded slightly and licked her lips.
“No parties,” Holt warned. This being New Years Eve, he wasn’t taking any chances, though something told him he need not be concerned. For one thing, she had a baby with her. For another, she seemed rather shy. He watched her gather her courage.
“Actually, I’m more interested in that Help Wanted sign out there,” she said.
Holt rocked back on his heels. He’d never experienced instantaneous answer to prayer before. It almost felt unreal.
So perhaps it was.
He narrowed his eyes while she hurried on in a soft voice.
“I-I’m looking for work, preferably something that would let me bring my boy along. Would this job, maybe, let me do that? I have a baby backpack, and he’s used to being carried that way. He’s quiet most of the time and...” She swallowed. “Look, I learn fast, and I’ll work hard.”
Holt didn’t know whether to smile or scowl. Two minutes ago he’d prayed for help, and now here stood this strange woman, with a child, no less, and obviously desperate. He felt torn between sending her on her way and hiring her on the spot, a sign of his own desperation. As a man of faith, he couldn’t discount the very real possibility that God might have sent her here, however. He stroked his chin, knowing that he had to interview her.
“Okay. First things first, I guess.” He reached a hand across the counter. “Name’s Holt Jefford.”
She ducked her head and slid her tiny hand in and out of his so quickly that it barely registered. Holt took a job application from a cubbyhole beneath the counter. Placing the paper on the counter, Holt reached for a pen then realized that the woman couldn’t fill in the blanks while holding the boy. He turned the paper to face himself.
“Cara Jane Wynne.”
He quickly wrote it out. “Birth date?”
“September one, 1983.”
That made her just twenty-five.
She looked away. “The last would be in Oregon, b-but I used to live in Duncan.” She slid a sad smile over him. “After my husband died, Oklahoma just seemed a happier place to be.”
Widowed and homeless, Holt thought, jolted. Well, Lord, I knew someone had to need this job. “Let’s use those addresses then.”
She rattled them off, and he wrote them down.
“And how long did you live there?”
“Oh, uh, in Oregon, like seven years, I guess, and in Duncan until I was thirteen. Almost fourteen.”
He made the appropriate notes, then looked up, but the instant their eyes met, she looked away again. “Job experience?”
Those soft gray eyes came back to his, pleading silently. “I haven’t worked since I was in high school,” she said in a voice barely above a whisper. “My husband didn’t want me to.”
“You must have married young,” Holt said, without quite meaning to.
She nodded. “Eighteen.”
“Ever worked around a motel?”
“No, but I can guess what needs to be done, and I’m not afraid of hard work.”
“Can you use a computer?”
“Sure. But it depends on the program.”
“Nothing too complicated,” he muttered. “But what we really need is housekeeping, someone to clean the rooms, do the laundry and upkeep. And it would really help if you could cook.”
A troubled expression crossed her face. “I’m no short-order cook, if that’s–”
“No, no, that’s not what I mean. See, this is my grandfather’s place, and he needs somebody who can fix a decent meal for him at least once a day.”
She visibly relaxed. “That I can do.”
Nodding, he asked, “Any references?”
Once again, she avoided his gaze. “I don’t know… I mean, it’s just Ace and me now. M-my husband and I pretty much kept to ourselves.”
Holt battled with himself for a moment. His every instinct told him that she was lying to him. A stranger without references or an address, he knew absolutely nothing about her. But she needed the job, and he needed the help. Besides, hadn’t he just asked God to send someone? He looked at that baby on her hip and nodded, motioning toward the apartment door. He didn’t know how anyone could manage the workload around here with a kid in tow, but that issue could be addressed later.
“Let’s go talk it over with Hap.”
She walked toward the end of the counter, speaking softly to the boy, who crammed his fist into his mouth and chewed. She had a petite figure, as those slim jeans showed, and tiny hands and feet, but she moved like a woman.
Stepping past her, he reached for the knob on the door that led into the small apartment where his grandfather lived.
Holt Jefford pushed open the door to the apartment and stepped aside to let Cara and Ace pass. A tall, lean man with a ruggedly handsome face and intelligent, olive green eyes, he made Cara nervous. Perhaps it had to do with the lies. Waves of suspicion had washed over her back in the lobby, but if he suspected that she’d lied, then why would he agree to let her speak to this Hap person?
Cara paused to look around, finding herself in a small private apartment. Unlike the warm, appealing lobby with its wood paneling and black leather furniture, this place appeared a bit dingy and cluttered, from the overstuffed bookcase against one wall to the old-fashioned maple dining set. Yet, it had a certain well-used hominess about it, too.
“Hap uses the front room as the main living area,” Holt said, jerking a thumb over his shoulder to indicate the lobby. Three doors opened off the end of this room, which functioned primarily as an oversized dining area. “Bedrooms,” Holt supplied succinctly. “Bath in between.”
Cara nodded, uncertain why he’d mentioned this, before letting her gaze pick out details. A long narrow kitchen with incongruous stainless steel countertops opened off the wall opposite the door through which they had entered.
The acrid smell of burnt food permeated the air.
“Granddad,” Holt called. “Company.”
An old man limped into the open doorway, a spatula in hand. The faded denim of his overalls showed grease spatters, and his thinning yellow-white hair stuck up on one side. The two men shared a pronounced resemblance, although age had stooped the shoulders of the elder, whom Cara suspected had once been a redhead.
She found herself musing that this Hap must have been as handsome in his youth as his grandson was now. She met the welcome in those faded green eyes with smiling relief.
“And charming company it is,” the old fellow rasped. Cara dipped her chin in acknowledgment, readjusting Ace on her hip.
“Granddad, this is Cara Jane Wynne,” Holt said. “My grandfather, Hap Jefford.”
Hap Jefford nodded. “Ms. Wynne.”
“Cara Jane, please,” she said, determined to make that name wholly her own.
At the same time Holt spoke. “She’s applying for the job.”
Hap’s eyebrows climbed upward. “Well, now. That’s fine.” Hap limped forward, his left hip seeming to bother him some, and smiled down at the child chewing on his fist. “And who’s this here?”
Cara hitched her son a little closer. “This is my son Ace.”
“Not a year yet, I’m guessing,” the old man said pleasantly.
“He’ll be ten months soon.”
“Fine looking boy.”
Holt sniffed, and Cara felt a spurt of indignation ¾ until she suddenly became aware of stinging eyes.
“Granddad, did you forget something in the kitchen?”
Jerking around, Hap hobbled through the doorway, Holt on his heels. “Land sakes! I done made a mess of our dinner. Again.”
Holt sighed. No wonder he’d asked if she could cook. Cara knew that she had an opportunity here, if she proved brave enough to take it. She lifted her chin and crowded into the narrow room next to Holt, feeling his size and strength keenly. She tamped down the awareness, concentrating on this chance to prove herself.
“Maybe I can help.”
Hap twisted around. “You can cook?”
“I can.” She looked pointedly to the skillet, adding, “But it’s been awhile since I’ve even seen fried okra.”
“Charred okra, you mean,” Holt corrected.
Hap handed over the spatula with an expression of pure gratitude. “There’s more in the freezer.” He gestured at a large piece of sirloin hanging over the edges of a plate on the counter. “Do what you like with that. I set out some cans of sliced taters to heat in the microwave. Opener’s in this drawer here. Anything else you need, just nose around. Holt will set the table while me and Ace get acquainted.”
“Oh, no. Ace will stay with me,” Cara insisted, looking down at her son. Too late, she realized that might have sounded rude, as if she didn’t trust the old man. Then again, she didn’t trust anyone. How could she? “I-I’m used to working with Ace close by,” she said, hoping that would be explanation enough.
Hap traded a look with his grandson, and Cara held her breath until the old man nodded, smiled and said, “You and the boy will join us for dinner, of course.” He somehow managed to make it an order without it sounding like one. Cara breathed a silent sigh of relief
“No need for that when you’re cooking. We’ll talk about the job later.”
Nodding, Cara told herself not to blow this. It had been months since she’d cooked a meal, but surely she could manage this. Hap hitched himself past her and out into the other room, while Holt remained behind to lean a hip against the counter. Ignoring him, Cara sat Ace on the floor in a corner near what appeared to be the back door and removed his knit hoodie and the sweater beneath it. She took a small wooden toy truck from her jacket pocket and gave it to Ace before looking around her.
The apple green walls and cabinets of pale, golden wood contrasted sharply with the industrial-grade metal countertop, but everything looked neat and clean if an odd mixture of the old and new, the professional and the homey. Noting the lack of a dishwasher in the small, cramped room, Cara glanced hopefully at the solid door next to the refrigerator.
“That goes out to the laundry room,” Holt told her.
So, no dishwasher. She checked the sink. And no garbage disposal. Well, she’d survived a lot of years without those things.
“There’s a big coffee can for scraps,” he said, pointing to the cabinet beneath the sink. “It goes into the dumpster out back when it’s full. There’s extra cans on a shelf above the dryers.”
Nodding, Cara got down to work. She went to the freezer compartment of the refrigerator, moving past the tall man who watched her like a hawk. She found the okra in a half-empty plastic bag and a small box of frozen green beans.
“Okay if I use these?”
Holt glanced at the box of green beans then at the boy now tapping the truck on the floor. “Sure. Use anything you want.” With that, he moved to an overhead cabinet and began removing the dinner dishes, taking his time about it.
While Ace banged happily, Cara scraped the blackened okra and grease into the can under the sink, replaced the lid, cleaned the skillet and began looking in cabinets. Finally she asked, “Oil?”
Holt nodded at the tall, narrow cabinet doors across from the refrigerator. “In the pantry. Oh, and by the way, there’s a chance my brother Ryan will be joining us, too.”
That meant three Jefford men, not just two, which explained the huge slab of steak. Cara removed her jacket, hoping he wouldn’t notice the sleeveless tank tops that she wore in the dead of winter, and started heating the oil in the frying pan.
“Should I set a place for Ace?” Holt asked. “We don’t have a high chair.”
“No, that’s all right,” she answered without looking at him. “He’ll sit in my lap, eat off my plate.”
Holt went out, carrying dishes and flatware.
Cara’s hands shook as she reached for the skillet, but a glance at her son stiffened her resolve. She could do this. She had to do this. Everything depended on it.
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Arlene James has been writing for three decades and is the author of more than 70 novels. Happily, the Christian/Inspirational Romance market affords her the best of all possible worlds, a fact for which she daily praises God and thanks her readers! A mom and proud grandmother, she’s been married to the love of her life for thirty+ years. Visit Arlene's website at www.arlenejames.com
Arlene James has been writing for three decades and is the author of more than 70 novels. Happily, the Christian/Inspirational Romance market affords her the best of all possible worlds, a fact for which she daily praises God and thanks her readers! A mom and proud grandmother, she’s been married to the love of her life for thirty+ years.
Visit Arlene's website at www.arlenejames.com
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